When my family and I decided to perform Umrah just before the month of Ramadan began in July 2011, I never ever in the wildest of my dreams or nightmares imagined myself in hijab! I had considered it... far later on in life.. Probably when I was a bit wrinkled and had finally admitted to myself that I needed dentures.. But surely, Allah had a different plan for me!! And I don't think anyone was prepared for what was coming my way... But having said all this.. I would have never wanted it any other way!
They say Allah brings you closer to Him in many ways.. and mine was through deep pain and a yearning for guidance. I was in a position in life where I was in deep regret and had deep desire to find Allah in my life. So one day after we had finished performing Umrah, I was resting in our hotel room in Makkah and I awoke to a seed Allah had planted in my mind.. I wanted to wear hijab!! I didn't question it. I didn't think twice. I jumped right in with both feet... jumped waaay deep into it. I knew it would be tough but all I did was pray to Him, to give me the strength.. and Alhamdullilah He has never let me falter. Yes I have stumbled and fallen, but He has ALWAYS lifted me up and kicked me back in shape. And I hope Insha Allah He will continue to keep doing this whenever necessary.
Life continued. I returned to Colombo and had to take the social beating anyone would be succumbed to, given my circumstance. Sri Lanka is a multi ethnic Island of Paradise and Muslims are a minority. So go figure. As expected, there were many moments of diminishing hope, so much to the point of me throwing in the towel and giving up on hijab. But for some reason, I gritted my teeth, cried (buckets), contemplated giving up but eventually pulled up my imaginary cotton socks and got back on track!
Seven months down the line, here are my seven reasons for loving hijab...
1. Insha Allah my toast wouldn't be roast come the day I meet my Creator.. (a bit of damage control, I'm hoping will help:)
2. I finally am recognized for being Muslim - a refreshing change from being mistaken for anything but a Muslim!
3. Many of my close friends and family have blessed me since.. I must have done something right ;P And I've never seen my mother this proud and pleased with me.. brownie points :)
4. It's proved to be a challenge - dealing with sneers, jokes and prejudices have only made my faith grow stronger. And I now see the dim wits from the one's that really matter. So whatever you've got to egg at me.. BRING. IT. ON!!!
5. I'm beginning to enjoy a sense of peace and belonging (this has been waaay overdue I tell you)
6. Hijab hasn't stifled life and the program I had for it... it's only opened greater avenues I never knew existed.
7. It's redefined ME.. and I'm loving me!